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[06 Dec 2005|03:42pm] |
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hey, ehh.. yesterday at school when i was in my Algebra class, there was a sharp part on the seat i was sitting on. First i accidently cut my left index finger. But..then i donno. i started to rub my arm against it and i made several cuts. They weren't bad ones. but they were still cuts. I havn't SI'ed( self injured) in a long time. Like i said in my first post here. I can't guarentee that i won't do that stuff anymore. Guess i thought i had quit doing it since i hadn't done this for months and months. Guess i was very wrong. And when i look at my arm, it urges me to want to do more and more. But i just can't because its so risky. My mom has caught me twice. not in the act but shes seen the cuts. And if shes sees them again i donno what will happen. I honestly think i have a major problem here. i think this whole thing is more of a fetish then a thing were i'm so down and upset. I know it sounds fucking strange and odd that it would be a "fetish" or whatever. grr i donno anymore
later and thnx to those who read
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